I feel like that blog entry was mainly about how I feel very defeated. Defeated is the word.
July 31, 2008
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Hold on..
let me find a suitable song on my shuffle to blog to….
okay. got it. it is Damien Jurado. Can’t see what song though, after all it is a shuffle.
So. I am in Spokane. I have been here since Wednesday morning. I will be back in Seattle around 8pm tomorrow night. I am going through training for work. It has been really good so far. The hotel is nice. The training is much needed and I am thankful to get it. I am excited, more than I can say, to be managing a group home up here in Seattle. I know I will be able to make a difference in peoples lives.
I feel a little weird tonight. “Weird”. Karl and I lost a roommate. Probably means a hell of a lot more to me than him. For obivious reasons. I am, and have been, feeling a lot of things lately. It has been rather hard to keep a smile on my face. Rather hard to walk around town and meet new people. I have no desire to meet anyone. I don’t exactly know how I feel, as I am still trying to digest my actions and their consequences. I should have known better. That is what I keep telling myself. I should have known better. Move in together? I should have known better. Take, yet another, relationship way too fast? I should have known better. That is one thing that I have taken a step back at and tried to understand. It is understandable for me to feel sad. Sure. I am not angry at her. Why should I be. Everything is mutual. I am just tired. Tired of meeting someone and having my entire world change. To have the world slow its spinning to a delicate turn. And then just when that turn feels like a usual hum, something you learn to depend on, and something that becomes one of the only concrete beliefs you have it just starts spinning out of control. The usual hum turns into this set of tires burning rubber down your street, and out of your life. The things you have come to depend on completely and swiftly disappear. And another belief gets crushed. (I am a positive person, I know. But even being positive slows up and speeds down.)
When I moved up here I was really excited to see what was in store for me. I felt like I needed a new chapter to write. I still feel that way. I moved up here for myself. I moved up here to grow as a man. To learn more about myself and to become a more solid person. I feel like I have learned a lot this year. Most of which was obivious to me right after realizing it. There have been other things learned, that were not so obivious. Things that I need to work on, and will not come easy.
I am grateful for the people I have meet and become close to while living here. If it weren’t for them I would be doing a lot worse. And I am very grateful for the friends back home that have kept in touch, and the ones that have visited. I know my plans to visit got pushed back, but I am coming this year.
I don’t know all that I am trying to say tonight. It feels good to let a little out here. I wish I would have gotten back to the hotel in time to use my free drink ticket. But alas, the bar is now closed. I even realized I forgot to eat dinner. My mind has been filled with training and Krista moving out the last of her things from our house.
IÂ need to figure out dinner.
Goodnight.
July 29, 2008
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honey plum ice tea and a strawberry chocolate chip cupcake from Cupcake Royale in Ballard.
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July 28, 2008
Jesse and Alex
Click the photo to see all the other rad photos from this past weekend. Actually I still have to upload some, but I am tired. More tomorrow!
July 27, 2008
Sunday, Days Nu, Ya Duns
Michael introduced me to the band Colossal. Thank you Michael. So good. Here is their space, for lack of better website, Colossal. The album I have is “Welcome the Problems”.
Saw Polar State and Young Lost Ones Friday night before/during Alex’s party. So good. I am so happy I was able to go. Jesse came to and we meet up with his friend Leslie. They are playing tonight too. So after I attend Super Club I will be heading over for more tunes.
Super Club is hosted by Alicia over in Fremont. Tonight is Indian food. Needless to say, I am very excited.
Anyone that lives in the Seattle area and needs a haitcut or manicure or something of that nature please let me know. I have a very talented friend who wants to help you as you help her. I am scheduling a manicure and scalp massage.
Last night Jonathon, Fred, Alicia, Ben, and I went across the street to watch Goonies on the wall of the post office. Sidewalk cinemas are happening all over the place, it is hard to keep track. And for me it is hard to stay awake. I guess last night, I took a pillow and near the end of the movie just laid down and feel asleep. ha. Next week we are going to Fremont to see Twisted Flix. Pretty much they have a setup similar to MST3k. They show a film that is old and not very good, with no sound. Then they improv the dialouge, soundtrack and sound effects. Should be pretty awesome. Anyone else interested?
The file for download is one of my latest finds from my answering machine collection. I really enjoyed this message on a lot of levels. You can hear the woman convey a lot of different emotions, through her message to her son. I sense she wishes that he came around more with his kids. It is messages like this that make me thrift at least once a week to continue finding these little treasures. Enjoy.
July 25, 2008
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Jesse scooting home from the produce stand. We had just loaded up for juicing. We juiced for almost 3 hours!
Shearwater
Went to see Shearwater tonight at Nectar with Alicia. The show was sooo good. I knew it was going to be, because it is Shearwater. But they still topped that expectation. Totally worth going. Plus it was fun too!
Dear Blythe,
An anagram for Blythe, Kirby, Hero, and Mary is ….
Habit Berry Rhyme Yolk
I miss you all, as well.
July 24, 2008
Friends
Ha. This has to be from 2000 or so. I can’t believe how young we all look. I can’t remember if I have ever Flickred this photo. I hope you all enjoy a 7 year younger Brad, Derek, Jimmy, and Josh P.
Vegan Pad Thai
July 23, 2008
Happy Birthday Amigo
My Champion
I made Tomato, Carrot, and Pea juice. Just because I made it doesn’t mean it is going to taste good. But you never know.
July 22, 2008
RAW
Ok, so I used Adobe Lightroom to edit the RAW image I posted a few posts ago. Now it looks sooo much better. I can’t wait to learn how to manage RAW better, but I think this first attempt is pretty good.
Little Figures
My first photo taken with my new Canon G9 camera. I have a lot of reading to do now. I need to learn to work with RAW images. I am sooooooooooo excited to have this camera. Photo updates are going to be so much more detailed and awesome.
July 20, 2008
The Food
Jesse and I went to Del Taco. That’s right. DEL TACO
1/2 lb. Bean and Cheese Burrito (Red)
1/2 lb. Bean and Cheese Burrito (Red & Green)
Nachos
Cheese Quesdilla
Cheeseburger
7-11 Flyer
Data
Jesse, Susanna, and I went to 7 7-11 locations on July 11th, 2008. We took data and drank a lot of sugar. We also took a lot of photos which can be found at my Flickr, by clicking this photo. Susanna gathered up the data and then I put it into this chart. We tried to get different flavors at each location. We all agreed that the sugar made us feel crazy, even hours after we stopped drinking. The trip was a lot of fun though, and know our knowledge has grown and we can further instruct people into making the best decision possible, when it comes to Slurpees.
Holden Ave
There are more pictures in this set. Click the photo and it will take you into the set to explore our 7-11 findings.
From Omar
Omar and Chris made this sweet sand mountain that takes this sandball on an adventure. Enjoy